WWE legend Nikki Bella has revealed she “stuffed her desire for marriage and kids” away during her relationship with fellow wrestler John Cena.
The couple split after six years together back in 2018, with Bella at the time saying she “knows what’s best for me”.
Now In her new memoir, Incomparable — co-written with twin sister Brie — the two-time Divas Champion has revealed the issues that led to the pair calling off their engagement.
And it was Cena’s concerns over marriage and children that appear to be the straws that broke the camel’s back.
Bella, 36, wrote: “Rather than turn and face that, I pushed it under the carpet and figured I could pretend like it wasn’t there.
“Because I was terrified of losing my love, I stuffed my desire for marriage and kids as deep as I could.
“He had made it clear that they weren’t on the menu for him.
“That’s tough, though, because if you’re inclined that way, then the more you grow to love someone, the more you want it all.
“I stopped giving voice to those needs, though. I was worried my ex would call it off and let me go.
“And while I wanted those things very badly – I just wanted him more.”
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After the couple split, Bella did come out in the press and admit she “regretted how one-sided it appeared”.
She also admitted she would still “love” him, and described the 43-year-old as “a wonderful man”.
The couple have been dating since January 2019 after being paired together in Dancing With The Stars Season 25 back in 2017.
The Total Bellas star, 36, wrote that when she was 15 years old, she was attacked by a fellow high school student she “thought was a friend.”
Months later, Nikki was assaulted again after being drugged by a college-aged man.